life

haih...
as a 'professional' psychologist or counsellor,
i should psycho myself and comfort myself that i have already done my best for everything.
i've tried my best in doing everything...
i knew im not smart as other, i study hard, i really do..
although i had catch up with some pointer which i kinda satisfied with
as sikis sikit lama jadi bukit,
if i keep on pay  effort ,i knew the cgpa will increase slowly.
but... life wasn't that easy
i almost lost contact with the world which i dislike this the most!
i don't like to be isolated and the feeling of lonely..
there was an incident and make me realized that it was my fault
as i didn't update myself with them and other do not responsible to inform me for everything.
i felt sorry and sad...and i decided to take some actions.
i successfully build the bond and feel more comfort with that.
until i went back this cny,
is this my fault again? or i over think again?
why i have so many irrational beliefs ?..............
i couldn't feel the warmness that we ever had last time.
mayb we didnt't talk much n it makes me felt like "this is not us"
somehow i can't really take it when she say something bad to me.
i know we are not those friends out there but....
i can't say anything as i knew u r just joking but it makes me feel sad
and i don't know how to persuade myself to take it easy.
life is always miserable~
things and people will always change
hi bye friends mean nothing to me.
i want true friends who understand each other well..
i always feel that people who said ' i hate to grow up' 'i want the time back' are childish
and now.....i think they are right.
human tend to stay in the past which they think that it is the best moment they ever had.
so do i.....

my angelina jolie

*樱桃小嘴 VS angelina jolie*

i miss my boy <3>

today is his 3rd day holiday

 we just met 3 days ago n i started to miss him d ><

oppssyy~this is so not me!!hahahahha

hmm...we should have more pillow talks!!!!

pa la pa pa pa~~

i love to makes u cry!makes u throw everything out deep from the heart

let u paiseh n bin ang in front of me

hiak hiak hiak hiak

haih...i miss the moment that we both talk n cried together

*finished all the tissues*

will u feel better after the talk?

have the direction where to go n what u want d?

just look it as u study for us n u gotta be very hardworking for everything

BUT we will not blame on u when u feel stress or u fail..

we will always be there for u ok?

so wei da ><

the best part in my life is when my family accepted u n give u all those good comment !!

my mum said she miss u n wanna cook for u

my aunties sayang u n have hopes on u 

n of cz yr mum also sayang me buy things that r useful for me...

i just simply enjoy what i have now =]

the only things left is the 'future'

fight together n have it together XD

思念

曾几何时我们的距离越变越远，
每次你说这句话时
我都会以很开完笑的心情和你说笑
但在你心情不好时
就会把事情都听得很错，完全好像我们都在吵架
应该说完全让我们吵架。。。
我不喜欢那种感觉
不喜欢你老是不接受，不喜欢你发完牢骚又不接受事实
没有好吃的也没有办法大家吵吵闹闹了又会默默接受
我知道你读书压力
有时我说一些话也只是想要激励你，并没有施加任何压力
你读书读到疯了对我也没有好处
我不是再埋怨你。。
只是要你不要那么辛苦
读书压力了，累了就应该要休息。。
我明白你好胜的心情但不要让它影响自己的身体
摇钱树的事也不必再重复了吧。。
也不懂什么时候开始，讲电话也会哽咽
我讨厌！
不是应该是story telling/sharing 的吗？
怎么变了吵架，不信任了。。。
我。。明白我们都没有错
只是错中复杂的心情让我们都乱了
我并没有怪你的意思，
只是不想通过电话来说免得表错情，又误会。。
好好读书再过一星期多就要回来了。。。
想念你  =')

难过，难过啊。。

人生，是如此的坎坷啊？
why must we get through the life
that will makes us uncomfortable,suffer and feel like dying?
because this is 'life' =.=
which means it must be fluctuate
sometimes it might be extremely high or low,it depends
and the lowest part of my life in kampar is the study week
gosh!i hate it the most!!
it is worst than go marathon for a week,
T.T
everyday, i got up from my bed
i sit here,
after a while, i go bath and i come back
i sit here,
will have my breakfast everyday,at the same place
which is here again,
after breakfast i will start to study, playing music
sitting in front of the desk,
tired after reading?i online,
no doubt...is the same place
time for a break!lunch..sometimes i will cook
sometimes no.eat bread or cup noodles + running man
again..my table and chair is the same!
this is my daily routine...
until night,i might out for dinner if i didnt cook,
how if i cooked?nah~~~
u will know where i eat and what i do again..
again...sit here until end of the day
until i got tired sitting with my ka chui,
i will lie on my bed...like a dead person
i feel so lifeless during the study week,
i gained weight i loss of connections
and the most important thing is
MY ASS GETTING BIGGER N BIGGER!
what life is this? :'/
dislike!! i want the energetic faye!
i want the faye that have wide social network
i want the un-tiredable faye
i want the oh lu lu san pi pa's faye
im like losing the previous me n i couldn't get her back =(
go away the bad mood!!here come the best ...
one more week to go!faster~~
and i will be free for one month!!
god...let me go through every sem break of mine in the heaven =D
n thanks june that she didn't dumped my like what she did last sem ><
but...sorry to say that i gonna abandon her for 2 weeks..
dun miss me when im not here to cook for u ~

1.when is the exact day that we get know to each other?

2. friends : when get getting close to each other?
   lenny    : when we started our relationship?

3.what is my favourite foodss?

4.what is my bad habits?

5.what is the things that i always like to do if front of u?

6.how many marks will u give to yrself  ,in a num scale of 1-9?

7.what is our common favourite ?hobbies? or interest?

8.do we have any unisex shirt (couple-t or gang-t),how many?

9.what is my strengths? or any good things can be found on me?


10. lenny : what is the things of mine makes u so obsessed with me ? >< hahahahahahha

BEWARE OF WHAT U GONNA ANSWER~*evil-ly laugh*

珍惜

昨晚，发了个梦。。
梦境，内容都很模糊
但隐约只记得你有在身边。。
大概是因为你说你希望我有什么事时，你可以陪着我~
好像是在一个海边
我和朋友聚着，却很大声的说
“男朋友来接我啦！”
哈哈~好笑的是我看见你和小黄哥一起出现了！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈
hmm。。剩下的我都不记得了
这可是上天给我的第一个考验，
我从来没想过自己也是远距离恋爱的情侣之一
也没想过，duration 竟然是3年！
好奇哦~原来我也是一个专一的对象><
有时候真的很想像以前那样，
即叫即到，想吃什么就吃什么
虽然我也很胃食，但你也应该庆幸我最爱路边摊
但所有人都说婚前婚后，两个人，那你应该先做好心理准备哦！、
其实常常在煮饭时都会想起你，
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
并不是想念你在我煮东西是抱我或什么的，
只是害怕你又因为食物而发牢骚，
你知道啦，常会因为这样而引起吵架
你啦！不懂事的小孩
凡事最好看开点，你开不开心他们才不在意
只是你的肚子能不能不在意？
昨天，可说是我20年以来最衰的一天
但又如何？
口头上会假装为难你，但我还是理智的
我知道根本不可能，
开心也是一天，不开心也是一天
为何不让自己好过点。。
可老实说“想念是会呼吸的痛”
我已经经不起那倒数的日子，
宁可什么都不算让它自己过就好了
没必要经历像犯人即将处刑那样。。
宝贝（斐），开心点吧~
时间来的快去得也快，要好好珍惜  =' )

远距离

我知道有个人，傻傻的几乎每天都在refresh blog
看看有没有什么新发现，结果就这样过了2个月>.<
hahhahhahaha oppsss~
好吧，就让我承认自己说过的谎言吧！哈哈哈
ok
对不起让你有个那么天生野蛮+霸道的女朋友（可能你会觉得很幸福吧）
我知道有时候我忙起来会一时把你给忘了，
但我希望你明白，我不是故意的
我有在kampar的烦恼，有要和家人团聚的时间，更有和你的私人时间
希望你能体谅我回来时会没空理你。。
我知道你生病了应该多关心你，知道你会吵我也是因为你想要多一点注意力
我都知道的，但有时就是不懂要怎么分身嘛。。
或许那个女生和你真的有很多共同点
但可能只是因为你们都处在同一个地方，性格又点相识
你们都有在那里的烦恼，是我永远体会不到的那种
但你要食言！不然我就然你食盐！！！
hng~老娘可是不怕那小小的yukelele
影响不了多大，只是害怕那夜深人静的晚上
不少人抵挡不住那些迷人的色诱！
都是那星星月亮惹得祸~~~~~
即使那些干醋都少不了，你还是有责任要把每一样事情告诉我
我知道你每次都会嫌我不体谅不善解人意
但我不管！不管！
一定要说。。。
现在我懂人家每次说什么世上最遥远的距离了！
就是所谓的“远”距离。。。恋爱~~ :'(